Sometimes, I, like Sara, generate multiple ideas at a time, leading me to end up making some sort of choice whether it’s the best one or not. However, for our winter theme, I had no problem making the choice. More on why later.
No, choosing my project was not difficult for me. But creating it? Well now that’s an entirely different story. See the problem is simply that I’m a perfectionist. It’s one of those qualities that is a real pro to have sometimes, like at work when the boss is paying attention. But when it rears its insatiable head while I just want to go with the flow of a project or idea it’s decidedly a con.
Once the perfectionist in me is awakened, it all but takes over. I have one of those classic internal struggles with Perfectionist on one shoulder and Derelict on the other. Okay well maybe that’s putting it a bit strongly, but the fact is that if I don’t appease the Perfectionist, at least to some degree, I cannot rest. I will forever be irritated at the final product. I can’t say how many abandoned projects I have lying around because I was being stubborn and didn’t want the Perfectionist to win. Alas, this makes for a lot of unfinished-ness in my life, clutter if you will, and that has its own brand of negativity. It kind of weighs me down, collects dust – physically as well as mentally. I don’t want any more of that, especially when I have the ability to keep this from happening.
And so, I find myself back to the question: what to do to appease the Perfectionist? Well my friends, I have decided. I will start over. Yep. Here goes nothing.